
A year ago, I booked high tea.
At my favourite place.
With favourite people.
To celebrate my birthday.
It was late for my birthday, but fell on my mum's birthday a week or so later.
Another reason to celebrate.
It also fell on a weekend of deluge and flash flooding.
My friends mostly, wisely, pulled out. They made the right choice. The conditions were too risky.
Except for one dear friend, ready for adventure, determined in her love.
I felt compelled to go though.
You see, my mum.
It was her birthday.
She probably didn't know
She was in the final awful stages of Dementia.
That stole her away from us, little by little, far too fast.
I was convinced
that I had to see her.
I was convinced
that Death must come knocking, when birthdays draw near.
that the cells in her body knew that the day had come
I was convinced
that her fragile grip on life would loosen.
That, having made the next milestone, she would finally let go.
I had to see her.
To give her my love.
So that I didn't miss 'goodbye'
I'm so glad I did.
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we were unwise
in the deluge
in the floods
we were lucky
we made it through
never again
She lingered for another month.
And then her body failed
Suffering enough
we told her she could leave us
we would care for her son
she was loved
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those memories washed over me as I drove today
confronting me on the road to high tea
and God was kind
different seats, different views, new memories
with another precious friend
ready for adventure, determined in her love
flowers for love
lavender tones to comfort
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a posy
gentle, old fashioned roses, in dusky hues
a token of love
for one whom I love
so dearly missed
longings for better things
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blessings today, as well as the tears
cosy hand-knit socks. joy

friends who hear. healing
wheaten bloom glowing on green hills
chill & autumn leaves afire
shawl for cosy hug of warmth

an embrace filled with understanding
rose-hued dusk
sliver of silver crescent moon
my small boy finds me to say 'i love you'
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